One year today I heard the most amazing thing in the world. Your heart beating, my son. I remember it like it was yesterday, the fear I felt before the scan and the relief and joy I felt with happy tears rolling down my face when Dr A said she could already see you and let us hear the sound of your heart beating. Today you are a healthy, happy and smart little boy and the love of both mama and baba’s life. You are a gift and everyday I’m thankful. I hope both me and your father will be good parents and a good example to you insya Allah.

It might be strange that this day stands out like a neon sign for me. Most parents would probably remember their first positive pregnancy test instead, but I have been pregnant before; twice before but I never got to see the blinking dot on the ultrasound screen or the galloping sound of the heartbeat. None except for this lucky no 3. That is why this day is so important to me. Exactly one year ago I was able to hope again.
Today I pray for Dr A and all the other fertility specialist who with Allah’s will continue to help people like us. May Allah protect and bless them and their family so that they are able to continue doing good for the world of infertility. May Allah guide their mind, hands and hearts to do what’s best for us all.

For all that reads my blog and are still on this journey, may Allah protect your heart and give you hope and strength to weather this difficult time. May He grant you with your beautiful, healthy babies soon. Insya Allah. Amin.