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I wrote the post below a while ago but never got around to posting it.

This week I’ve been a little tired. I’m down with the flue andI’m getting used to waking up at 4:30am for sahur. I still sleep pretty late so I get grouchy in the morning coz I didn’t getanywhere close to my 8 hours. I’m such a baby! CD 1 wasJuly 11th. We haven’t gone to see the Dr for our post FET review and to discuss what to do next. We set the appointment for earlier this week but I didn’t want to miss work to go to a WTF appointment so I’ve rescheduled for a Saturday so the earliest they can slot me in is on the 3rd of August which is fine with me.  

In the car on the way to work today, hubby told me he wanted to try again right away and at the same time register to adopt.I think I’m ready… it’s a big step.  Don’t know how or where to start but it has made it to the list of things to think about seriously.

 

 

Love​

N

So I took the hpt and it was stark white – BFN. The clinic does not do a blood test for FET so this morning I made hubby give them a call to inform them of the test result of our hpt. We have an appointment to see the Dr next week to discuss the failed cycle.

How do I feel? Strangely calm; but I did down a huge bag of peanut M&M’s to drown the sorrow!! May be it hasn’t sunk in yet but I’m hoping the calmness stays.

Our next step? Well, we are going to enjoy and observe our Ramadan without worrying about fertility treatments for a while, after that we are planning to go for another round of IUI with a different Doctor. If that does not work, the plan is to do one more round of IVF. So that’s the plan for now.

Thank you so much to all that has wished us well and kept us in your prayers. I am forever grateful.

Love​

N

I’m spotting pink. I think it’s over…

3 days to test day… Utter panic!!! I woke up at 4am this morning and couldn’t go back to sleep. My mind cannot stop worrying about the cycle. You wouldn’t know by looking at me. On the outside I’m almost Zen like (LOL) but on the inside it’s war in here. I know there’s nothing I can do to change the outcome. I just hope that if the result is not to our favor, I will be able to be at peace with it and start planning our next step. I’m not being negative, I’m not writing off this cycle just yet but it’ll be smart to have plan B; something to look forward to.

Symptoms? Hmm… my (.)(.) were nice and sore on 7dpt and 8dpt which makes me feel good knowing that at least the progesterone pill I’ve been taking religiously, twice a day for these past week is working. Today not as sore anymore though and feels somewhat deflated, whatever that means??

Sunday will come soon enough and then I’ll know for sure. I might be testing a day early though since I have an appointment with my cardiologist for my blood pressure-monitoring and if we get a BFP, I would want to get my meds changed.

Hope there’s no war going on in your head. Here’s wishing everyone a Zen week ahead!

Love

N

Today is 6 days post 3 days embryo transfer. I’m back at work today after 6 days of lounging about at home. I took 4 days off work and then the weekend. It’s nice to go back to work and get myself busy again. I’m almost at the second half of mytww, can’t believe 6 days has passed. The first few days really dragged on and I’ve been praying that the days will just fly by, but now that we are closer to the second half I’m scared out of my mind!

Symptoms? I don’t think I have any. I am a little bloated but that’s the same every other cycle on meds. The strange thing is, my (.)(.) doesn’t hurt. The girls where tender around this time in my fresh cycle and also on all other cycles when I was on any type of follicle stimulation meds like clomid ortamoxifen and progesterone pills. I told my hubby about it and he went on and on about how this time around it’s a natural cycle so it’s different from our IVF cycle when I’m all pumped with meds. Well…. I was on meds this cycle too to help ovulation along. I even had a trigger shot and the progesterone pills I’m taking should be giving me some symptom right? I didn’t correct him though; got to love him for trying. I do have a persistence headache though and the tip of my fingers and toes are super cold. I don’t know what that’s about. May be it’s just nerves.

I was thinking about taking the test early. I’ve read that some people start testing 7dpd3t and that’s tomorrow. Should I? I did test for my fresh cycle and got a BFN at 7dpd3t and only got a BFP after my positive beta.  May be this time I should spare myself the pain and just wait till Sunday. I don’t know… I change my mind all the time, so who knows. I do have an extra hpt stashed somewhere. I’ll confess here if I breakdown and test 😀 I have moments when I wish that thistww will fly by and take us to testing day already but at a flip of a hat I want time to stand still so I can savor this moments imagining my two beautiful embryos snuggled inside me.

Sending everyone reading this loads of baby dust and hoping and praying that we’ll all get out take home baby soon.

Love

N